We Were Born to be Real, Not to Be Perfect

We Were Born to be Real, Not to Be Perfect

I’ve been feeling a little deflated lately.

While there have been many amazing blessings and many opportunities that I’m thankful for, my music has been declined for a few opportunities because of “out of tune vocals”.

Fall Again Life Lessons

Fall Again Life Lessons

So, on August 11th, I released FALL AGAIN & SLOW DANCE online...

It's so weird. I feel like nothing has really changed and yet everything has changed... Even though I only have a handful of fans & followers, I feel strangely legitimized; all this work I've done over the last year and a half seems to have a lot more meaning and purpose now - I'm so grateful for that. 

Life and Death

Life and Death

This week has been rough. 

One friend's brother died tragically at 27 years old, my husband's grandmother on his stepdad's side passed away suddenly (leaving her husband a widower after 58 years of marriage), a friend's husband unexpectedly passed away very young and 6 days after finding out they're expecting, and then to top it all off, Chester Bennington (Linkin' Park) committed suicide today (and OJ Simpson got parole, but that's neither here nor there). 

The Lesson my Hair Taught me During a Music Video Shoot

The Lesson my Hair Taught me During a Music Video Shoot

So, I woke up at 3:15am (Well, I snoozed so it was more like 3:24, but 3:15 sounds better) Thursday morning (or Wednesday night, depending on who you ask). I went and picked up three teenage girls and met them at a local lake to shoot the night scenes for the "Fall Again" music video. I did my makeup and hair myself and was excited that at that ungodly hour I still managed to pull my look decently together... or so I thought. 

5AM Thoughts

5AM Thoughts

I'm not good enough. 

Nobody will like my music.  

Im not thin enough.  

My lyrics aren't clear enough. 

My voice is too plain.  

My ideas are silly.  

I'm not sure what the right move is.  

I don't know what I'm doing.  

I Didn't Shower for Two Days.

I Didn't Shower for Two Days.

Yup.

I know. 

That's super gross. But it's totally true; I've had a rough week. 

Marriage is hard sometimes. Friendships are hard sometimes. Running a business is hard sometimes. Adulting is hard sometimes. Pursuing my dreams is hard ALL THE TIME.